We happen to be talking about the when’s, the where’s and the why’s. But in reality we never just appreciate the things around us, as we are the spirit of the skies. So, every now and then we just have a leap of faith and let time catch us. For we all consider our future treasonous. The all unknowing mighty power is ticking his last seconds of the hour. And as bright he could be using his manpower he will be deflowered. So let her grow…… that lovely flower.
Well here it goes; my last post of 2019. I think it’s a good moment for me to post something about myself so I could set it free. Taking it off my chest and being honest to myself.
We all know the “new year new me” bullshit that everyone says. Well I kinda had that twist 4 months ago, after my ex told me she wasn’t ready to be in a fully committed relationship! And ladies en gentlemen believe me when I say that it crashed my whole world. And I do still miss her and love her. I was never angry or whatever at her. I always wanted her to feel respected and free during the relationship and also when she decided she couldn’t be in the relationship anymore! I always understood her decision and I still do. But From that moment on I decided to change my behavior, my moral in life. I was a smoker who smoked about 10 cigarettes a day. Just 18 years old, young and maybe still stupid when i decided to smoke. Now, 8 years later, I finally quit that filthy habit. 10.5 weeks without a single cigarette and I know it was the best decision I ever made for myself and the future me. But that was not the only thing that I changed. I also started to work out. 4 days a week in the gym, eating healthier and saving money for my motorcycle license. I always tried to please other people first instead off myself. And don’t get me wrong I was always a good person to others and I still will be, but from now on I will do more for me while helping others on the way in need!
You have that beauty like a peeled clementine. Your last path was left behind like a guideline.
Your eyes and lips spoke in a tussle when you tried to connect the worlds puzzle. And When you slowly whisper in my ear and slightly that I could hear, “Do I slither around in your brain, can’t we touch the words like mark twain. come with me to the end of the world and dance with me in the rain”.
As you seek for the light, use your past as your guide!
Define every little hope you have in your faith,
use every fish you have as bait.
